I don’t want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have done something wrong, something so huge I can’t even see it, something that’s drowning me. I am inadequate and stupid, without worth. I might as well be dead.Margaret Atwood (via federleicht)
So today was a complete and utter failure. I binged so badly and then purged for the first time in a long time. I promised myself I would never purge again after my mom’s best friend died from purging. I saw first hand how much pain it caused my mom and I swore I would never put her through that again. However, today I broke my promise. I failed once again. What have I become?